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Ironman by BloodshotInk Parenting for Sex Addicts by CWeebs
5 reasons to date a girl with an eating disorder by A-Lovely-Anxiety Canning Season by ejeans7 Enceladus by toxic-nebulae
Twelve Moments In The Dead Of Summer by talvipaivanseisaus
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a dangerous hallucination by prettyflour Introductions V: Lasas by tuiskulumi Heaven - Day #2 FFM 2014 by PrettyOrangeMonster
i hear knives in the wind by nawkaman FFM 2014 18: Tragedies by ilyilaice weekends and cigarette smoke by kathleenfergie
how to tell me my scars are beautiful. by ohellohara The Trundler by copper9lives To depression, for creating days without end by Melpyra
How to Be a Smoker by Insifais Reflections by ThatOneWriterGuy hey newton, gravity's flawed by gliitchlord
Bloody Cupcakes by SirCassie thursday [wood]. by LadyMurasaki1 An Old, Sweet Song by SurrealCachinnation
longdead leaf by Ghrey
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Dear Death by Nihil-Invictus oppression. by silokk Under the Willow Tree by Aerode
Lilium by akrasiel They say the one who prays by Colornote Amber by Bad-Blood-Animal
Found Fossil by YppleJax Inspector Wolf by Tobaeus 5:20 by WizardHowl10001
we can't stop treading water, can we? by peaseblossoms Long-Distance Longing. by BleedingProphecies Survival Game by dashofwriter
Mo (1,315w) by Tales-of-Tao Poetic Psychosis by C-A-Harland
As always, an extra special thank you to all our wonderful suggeste
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I think perhaps I am you,

my hennaed fingertips
on the sun-red brick of your skin,

your wooden intricacies
in the moulding of my flesh,

your fractal tilework in bursts
under my eyelids,

your delicate streets, your artful
confusion, your reeling, your silence,
your noise
in my chest, nestled up to my heart—

I think that I could reach out to touch
you
and feel the corresponding prod
somewhere deep inside,

some ancient and arcane nook
within me.

I think that there is a fundamental
way
in which we coalesce—

in which the places we are from
never leave us.
Marrakech, I just wrote a poem about intimately belonging to you. It fell flat. My heart wasn't in it, and you could tell.

The truth is that I feel ugly and dull. I feel disconnected in this city of strangers whose language I do not speak, whose homeland I am perhaps encroaching on. I get mistaken for a tourist. Maybe I am one.

The truth is that I bristle every time someone looks at me. I feel venomous, like something frightful but amusing, something hawked out for a thrill like the snakes a street performer wrapped around my neck earlier today. I feel like spines are straining to burst up through my skin.

It's New Years Eve and we're on our way to a party. My step-mother suggested I put on some makeup and so I almost cried. We're in the car, driving past lights and palm trees and motorcycles. I'm wearing foundation and blush and eyeshadow, black kohl all around my eyes drawn into points at both corners. An intricate silver necklace purchased from a souk this afternoon weighs heavily on my chest. I still feel unremarkable. I still feel ugly and dull.

I'm going to say the wrong thing, I'm going to stumble over my French, I'm going to bristle every time anyone addresses me, I'm going to feel the spikes roil under my skin, I'm going to turn into a lantern worn through and through with holes.

Marrakech, I've slipped into metaphor again. I want to be honest with you. I want you to welcome me with open arms, I want you to spit me out like an irritant, like a grain of sand, I want you to make a pearl of me. Marrakech, I want to be yours and I want you to be mine, but I can't infringe too much on your time. Millions of people have more of a claim on you than I do. Thanks for listening, anyway.
there’s blood on the sheets
and there’s blood on my mind
I’m searching for something
that’s easy to find

there’s blood on my hands
and there’s blood on my face
I’ve been running from this
for the longest time

but now (ah, ah)
I’m here (ah, ah)
this time (ah, ah)
for good (ah)

there’s a line in the sand
and there’s sand in my eyes
I’m searching for something
impossible to hide

now all hands on deck
and all eyes on me
I’m frantically fighting
the urge to flee

but now (ah, ah)
I’m here (ah, ah)
this time (ah, ah)
for real (ah, ah)

there’s blood on the sheets
and there’s blood on my mind
I’m searching for something
that’s easy to find

there’s blood on my hands
and there’s blood on my face
and  running from this
would be such a waste

‘cause now (ah, ah)
I’m here (ah, ah)
this time (ah, ah)
for good (ah, ah)

yeah, now (ah, ah)
I’m here (ah, ah)
this time (ah, ah)
for real (ah, ah)

oh, now (ah, ah)
now I’m here (ah, ah)
this time (ah, ah)
for real (ah, ah)
I loved you
as I am going to lose you:
steadily, and without artifice.

like the clearing of floodwaters.
like the healing of a wound.

there is something within me
that does not permit permanence,
something rancid inside
that slowly wears through—

I cannot keep. I lose. I lose.

but I am determined, this time,
to do it gracefully. to make it
into a skill that I can perfect,

a performance that commands awe,
a sideshow of precious things
slipping through my fingers.

somewhere, behind a curtain,
on a rickety platform
surrounded by strangers,

I am losing you
as I have loved you:
willingly, and without reservations.

with the depth of an ocean.
with the tenderness of a bruise.
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Ironman by BloodshotInk Parenting for Sex Addicts by CWeebs
5 reasons to date a girl with an eating disorder by A-Lovely-Anxiety Canning Season by ejeans7 Enceladus by toxic-nebulae
Twelve Moments In The Dead Of Summer by talvipaivanseisaus
:iconirrevocablefate:
Features by IrrevocableFate 
a dangerous hallucination by prettyflour Introductions V: Lasas by tuiskulumi Heaven - Day #2 FFM 2014 by PrettyOrangeMonster
i hear knives in the wind by nawkaman FFM 2014 18: Tragedies by ilyilaice weekends and cigarette smoke by kathleenfergie
how to tell me my scars are beautiful. by ohellohara The Trundler by copper9lives To depression, for creating days without end by Melpyra
How to Be a Smoker by Insifais Reflections by ThatOneWriterGuy hey newton, gravity's flawed by gliitchlord
Bloody Cupcakes by SirCassie thursday [wood]. by LadyMurasaki1 An Old, Sweet Song by SurrealCachinnation
longdead leaf by Ghrey
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Features by GrimFace242
Dear Death by Nihil-Invictus oppression. by silokk Under the Willow Tree by Aerode
Lilium by akrasiel They say the one who prays by Colornote Amber by Bad-Blood-Animal
Found Fossil by YppleJax Inspector Wolf by Tobaeus 5:20 by WizardHowl10001
we can't stop treading water, can we? by peaseblossoms Long-Distance Longing. by BleedingProphecies Survival Game by dashofwriter
Mo (1,315w) by Tales-of-Tao Poetic Psychosis by C-A-Harland
As always, an extra special thank you to all our wonderful suggeste
:icongrimface242: GrimFace242

I still exist, I promise

Wed May 28, 2014, 2:10 PM
and now that I'm done with my first year of college (!!!) I'll have time to be around more.
I haven't been uploading much because I'm hoarding all of the best poems I've been writing for publication like a greedy dragon!
but I'll get around to looking through my inbox within the next week or so, I promise.

(also, in other updates about my life-- I have a new partner of the romantic type, ahhh! we'll be spending much of the summer together so I am excite!)

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Dudet19 Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
welcome to the group the haiku ledger :)
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ithaswhatitisnt Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday!! :tighthug: :heart: :iconrainbowcakeplz:
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williamfdevault Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2014  Professional Writer
Happiest of birthdays.  :blackrose:
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IrrevocableFate Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2014   Writer
Happy birthday. <3
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shewhoisadreamer Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2014  Student Writer
Happy birthday! Keep up the fantastic work :)
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tonepainter Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday... I hope you're having a great one!
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2014   General Artist
happy birthday, brilliant poet, beautiful person. :huggle: <3
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relativi-t Featured By Owner Edited Oct 7, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you so much for the favorite and especially for the watch!
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Footnoting Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014
I am a particular and difficult old fart, and I have been reading poetry since 1973.  Very, very few poets, of the countless many I have read, have moved my emotions in the way your poems have tonight.  In fact, I have to stop reading your stuff for a while---that kind of intensity, at my age, can only be experienced in small sessions.  I will be back, though, because I think---and will say here where anyone can see---that you are one of the finest poets on DA, and among the most powerful that I have ever read . . . since 1973.  Few poets have shaken me up so much that I have to take a break in my reading . . . but you have done so.  Don't let anyone, any place, or any time change your inimitable style.  It is distinctly your own, and it deploys a verbal power that is more than the mere sum of words or of lines.  Your poetry will be remembered long after most others' has been forgotten.
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toxic-nebulae Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2014  Student Writer
:heart: thank you so much!
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